It reminds me of old days.
I know it's better this way..
Being a musician is hurtful and heart-tearing effort.
It's better to play for fun and enjoy music.
Rachmaninov Piano Concerto 2
Vivaldi 4 Seasons
Chopin's piano work(most of them)
Beethoven Symphony(9 or them)
Brahms(my all time favorite)
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
Broke up letters his and mine
Hi, Tim.
How's your vacation?(or long weekend)
Having any fun?
After yesterday.. I've been thinking.. and I am still thinking.
I am afraid that this is not going to work.
I don't think that I am a girl of your dream.
There's probably better girl for you.. I am sure.
I sort of think.. that it's maybe better to stop before too late.
I am so sorry for what happened.
It's all my fault.
-Hana
How's your vacation?(or long weekend)
Having any fun?
After yesterday.. I've been thinking.. and I am still thinking.
I am afraid that this is not going to work.
I don't think that I am a girl of your dream.
There's probably better girl for you.. I am sure.
I sort of think.. that it's maybe better to stop before too late.
I am so sorry for what happened.
It's all my fault.
-Hana
Hi Hana,
yes, I've been doing some thinking too, and I agree with you. I don't think you are the woman for me, I don't think I need a princess in my life right now, maybe a woman who is more laid back and not so picky...I hope that is ok. have a great evening!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Tim.. the musician.
Isn't it weird.. or Is it weird?
I met him online.
I didn't want to meet anyone like that.
I swore.. that I won't date anyone..
For awhile.. until I meet someone special.
But I met him.
He is a musician..(can't say his last name)
I thought he was very nice.. and warm hearted.
He wasn't.
He just pretended to look like that.
He said things to please me.. sort of lying like..
I didn't want to point out because I didn't want to hurt his feeling.
I have met so many different people in my life.. so I know this type.
Just want to sound like he knows thing but.. he doesn't really.
I can tell right away.. why people lie? I can tell immediately.
I don't know everything.
I am not perfect.. so I don't expect anyone to know everything..
If he's never been in one of those restaurants in Seattle.. it's not something he feel embarrassed about.. It's OK to say "I've never been there."
How can one go every single restaurant in Seattle?
It's OK not to know about chocolate or truffle..
It's OK not to know about olive oil or some gourmet cuisine..
I do not care.. At all.
By lying about it, I know that he doesn't know about it plus that he lies.
Double trouble.. Why people do such a stupid thing?
The first date, we went to Pike market.
It was sort of romantic..
We walked around and got one cinnamon roll.
He said he didn't like too sweet.. so he got plain cinnamon roll.
I wanted to have Pecan sticky roll but he didn't care.
The roll was horrible. I didn't eat at all.. was dry and stale.
He ate most of it but I could tell he didn't enjoy it at all.
I asked him if that's his favorite cinnamon roll and if it was as good as before.
He said yes.. but some how I could sense that he never had it before.
I sensed that he had no idea and that was the first time ever he tried and regreted.
I asked him again(because of those feelings) if he ever had the cinnamon rolls there before.
He hesitated like a quarter sec and said yes. -- totally lied.
He didn't care if I wanted something or not..
So many times, I thought about my ex.. We've dated at Pike market.. many many times.
He knows I like those mini donuts.
So, he usually bought 6 cinnamon, 6 fancy donuts..
We ate and laughed a lot..
I could stop anywhere and he made comments.
He wanted to go game store then I went there with him.
This guy doesn't care about me at all.. he goes wherever he wants and never be considerate.
The first time we met, he said he cared about people..
That was a totally fat fat lie. He is one of the most selfish selfcentered me-me-me-me guys I ever met.
The second date, he wanted to go to the restaurant.
Honestly, I didn't feel comfortable..
By looking at his place, he seems so poor..
I didn't want to shock him going somewhere his whole month paycheck will be gone.
I didn't know how fancy we could go.. or not at all.
As for myself. I can afford 99% of the restaurants in Seattle.
However, I don't care if we have to get 50 cents Apple pie from MD..
As long as we have good time.
Food.. is just food.
I can go anywhere I want.. so it's the least thing I care about.
I do care about good company..
If I can eat with good friends or boyfriend.. I don't care what I eat where I eat.
(I care about type of food and picky, Yes but not the price.. I'll be just happy if we only eat mini donuts - 1.25 for dozen)
It doens't have to be expensive.. that doesn't amaze me at all.
So what.. I do care less if we eat $50.00 meal or $5.00 meal if we are together and enjoy.
Then, he wanted to eat Lobster..
So, we decided to cook at home.
He said he usually cook for other people and he is really good cook.
Then, in his kitchen there's nothing. He doesn't have any pot/pan to cook.
He doesn't have any dishes or cups or glasses.. How can other people eat?
He eats with his fingers and his utensils look 1000 years old.
He doesn't have any furniture too.
He said.. people just sit anywhere.
Whatever.. fat lie..
He overcooked garlic.
Cooking 101. Do not burn the oil.
Putting chopped garlic into burning oil is so.. idiotic thing to do.
You have to warm the oil and let garlic release it's flavor slowly.
Garlic became charcoal.
He didn't have strainer so the pasta was so soggy and he fried with burnt garlic oil so it was very greasy.
Shrimp(He kept call them prawns -- no cooking experience)s.. were very sandy because he didn't devein them.
I only ate about 6 shrimps and didn't touch the pasta because I don't want to eat too greasy pasta with charcoaled garlic. It's cancerous!!
He was drinking his so proud Cabernet.
He didn't ask or offer me any drinks.
And he told me he is a good host. -- not at all.. whose standard?
I think his sink has some problem.. water was leaking..
-- Obviously he doesn't cook much at home.
He told me he was going to make sure if I get enough nutrition or protein.
Although I didn't eat much, he didn't even ask me if I had enough or need anything else.
Date or friend, that's common sense.. make sure your guests get everything they need, right?
Just show me that you are trying.
If you want to be a Prince, act like one.
He just comfirmed me how good my ex was.
How sweet he was.
How gentleman he was.
How kinda he was.
Not only to me.. but also to others.
I am so glad that this is over peacefully.
This guy is not a good person.. I do not want to have *any* kind of relationship with him.
I just don't want to bump into him again.
I met him online.
I didn't want to meet anyone like that.
I swore.. that I won't date anyone..
For awhile.. until I meet someone special.
But I met him.
He is a musician..(can't say his last name)
I thought he was very nice.. and warm hearted.
He wasn't.
He just pretended to look like that.
He said things to please me.. sort of lying like..
I didn't want to point out because I didn't want to hurt his feeling.
I have met so many different people in my life.. so I know this type.
Just want to sound like he knows thing but.. he doesn't really.
I can tell right away.. why people lie? I can tell immediately.
I don't know everything.
I am not perfect.. so I don't expect anyone to know everything..
If he's never been in one of those restaurants in Seattle.. it's not something he feel embarrassed about.. It's OK to say "I've never been there."
How can one go every single restaurant in Seattle?
It's OK not to know about chocolate or truffle..
It's OK not to know about olive oil or some gourmet cuisine..
I do not care.. At all.
By lying about it, I know that he doesn't know about it plus that he lies.
Double trouble.. Why people do such a stupid thing?
The first date, we went to Pike market.
It was sort of romantic..
We walked around and got one cinnamon roll.
He said he didn't like too sweet.. so he got plain cinnamon roll.
I wanted to have Pecan sticky roll but he didn't care.
The roll was horrible. I didn't eat at all.. was dry and stale.
He ate most of it but I could tell he didn't enjoy it at all.
I asked him if that's his favorite cinnamon roll and if it was as good as before.
He said yes.. but some how I could sense that he never had it before.
I sensed that he had no idea and that was the first time ever he tried and regreted.
I asked him again(because of those feelings) if he ever had the cinnamon rolls there before.
He hesitated like a quarter sec and said yes. -- totally lied.
He didn't care if I wanted something or not..
So many times, I thought about my ex.. We've dated at Pike market.. many many times.
He knows I like those mini donuts.
So, he usually bought 6 cinnamon, 6 fancy donuts..
We ate and laughed a lot..
I could stop anywhere and he made comments.
He wanted to go game store then I went there with him.
This guy doesn't care about me at all.. he goes wherever he wants and never be considerate.
The first time we met, he said he cared about people..
That was a totally fat fat lie. He is one of the most selfish selfcentered me-me-me-me guys I ever met.
The second date, he wanted to go to the restaurant.
Honestly, I didn't feel comfortable..
By looking at his place, he seems so poor..
I didn't want to shock him going somewhere his whole month paycheck will be gone.
I didn't know how fancy we could go.. or not at all.
As for myself. I can afford 99% of the restaurants in Seattle.
However, I don't care if we have to get 50 cents Apple pie from MD..
As long as we have good time.
Food.. is just food.
I can go anywhere I want.. so it's the least thing I care about.
I do care about good company..
If I can eat with good friends or boyfriend.. I don't care what I eat where I eat.
(I care about type of food and picky, Yes but not the price.. I'll be just happy if we only eat mini donuts - 1.25 for dozen)
It doens't have to be expensive.. that doesn't amaze me at all.
So what.. I do care less if we eat $50.00 meal or $5.00 meal if we are together and enjoy.
Then, he wanted to eat Lobster..
So, we decided to cook at home.
He said he usually cook for other people and he is really good cook.
Then, in his kitchen there's nothing. He doesn't have any pot/pan to cook.
He doesn't have any dishes or cups or glasses.. How can other people eat?
He eats with his fingers and his utensils look 1000 years old.
He doesn't have any furniture too.
He said.. people just sit anywhere.
Whatever.. fat lie..
He overcooked garlic.
Cooking 101. Do not burn the oil.
Putting chopped garlic into burning oil is so.. idiotic thing to do.
You have to warm the oil and let garlic release it's flavor slowly.
Garlic became charcoal.
He didn't have strainer so the pasta was so soggy and he fried with burnt garlic oil so it was very greasy.
Shrimp(He kept call them prawns -- no cooking experience)s.. were very sandy because he didn't devein them.
I only ate about 6 shrimps and didn't touch the pasta because I don't want to eat too greasy pasta with charcoaled garlic. It's cancerous!!
He was drinking his so proud Cabernet.
He didn't ask or offer me any drinks.
And he told me he is a good host. -- not at all.. whose standard?
I think his sink has some problem.. water was leaking..
-- Obviously he doesn't cook much at home.
He told me he was going to make sure if I get enough nutrition or protein.
Although I didn't eat much, he didn't even ask me if I had enough or need anything else.
Date or friend, that's common sense.. make sure your guests get everything they need, right?
Just show me that you are trying.
If you want to be a Prince, act like one.
He just comfirmed me how good my ex was.
How sweet he was.
How gentleman he was.
How kinda he was.
Not only to me.. but also to others.
I am so glad that this is over peacefully.
This guy is not a good person.. I do not want to have *any* kind of relationship with him.
I just don't want to bump into him again.
Leo
I met a guy who claimed himself as a Leo..
well.. you can't call yourself a Leo.
If you are a Leo, you are..
He wasn't much of Leo.. He was just Leo wants to be.
He was a fake Leo...
He has no idea how to be a Leo.. that's why he can't even pretend right...
He is just selfish.. and not so intelligent.. and.. sadly poor.
I didn't mean to hurt him.
I didn't.
well.. you can't call yourself a Leo.
If you are a Leo, you are..
He wasn't much of Leo.. He was just Leo wants to be.
He was a fake Leo...
He has no idea how to be a Leo.. that's why he can't even pretend right...
He is just selfish.. and not so intelligent.. and.. sadly poor.
I didn't mean to hurt him.
I didn't.
Friday, May 11, 2007
To reduce stress
Go to bed on time
Get up on time so that you can start the day unrushed.
Say "no" to projects that won't fit into your time schedule.
Delegate tasks to capable others.
Simplify and unclutter your life.
Less is more.
Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
Pace yourself.
Take one day at a time.
Separate worries from concerns.
Live within your budget.
Have backups..
K. M. S(keep mouth shut).
Do something for the kid in you everyday.
Get enough exercise.
Eat right.
Get organized so everything has its place.
Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of your life.
Write thoughts and inspirations down.
Everyday, find time to be alone.
Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thanks you, Jesus~"
Laugh.
Laugh even more.
Take your work seriously.
Develop a forgiving attitude.
Be kind to unkind people.
Sit on your ego.
Talk less; listen more.
Slow down.
Remind yourself that your are not the general manager of the universe.
Get up on time so that you can start the day unrushed.
Say "no" to projects that won't fit into your time schedule.
Delegate tasks to capable others.
Simplify and unclutter your life.
Less is more.
Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
Pace yourself.
Take one day at a time.
Separate worries from concerns.
Live within your budget.
Have backups..
K. M. S(keep mouth shut).
Do something for the kid in you everyday.
Get enough exercise.
Eat right.
Get organized so everything has its place.
Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of your life.
Write thoughts and inspirations down.
Everyday, find time to be alone.
Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thanks you, Jesus~"
Laugh.
Laugh even more.
Take your work seriously.
Develop a forgiving attitude.
Be kind to unkind people.
Sit on your ego.
Talk less; listen more.
Slow down.
Remind yourself that your are not the general manager of the universe.
Beautiful morning..
A cup of good coffee.
Hazelnut aroma.
Rachmaninov Piano Concerto No 2.
Followed by Vivaldi 4 Seasons.
I am so happy.
I see sunrise outside of my window.
I see green green gold course covered with beautiful white fog.
I want to enjoy my life.
I want to appreciate what I have.
I want to give thanks to someone who allows me all these.
...
I want to live.
Please help me.
Hazelnut aroma.
Rachmaninov Piano Concerto No 2.
Followed by Vivaldi 4 Seasons.
I am so happy.
I see sunrise outside of my window.
I see green green gold course covered with beautiful white fog.
I want to enjoy my life.
I want to appreciate what I have.
I want to give thanks to someone who allows me all these.
...
I want to live.
Please help me.
Feeling love..
OK.
I feel love.. I think I am in love.
However, this is not right.. so I have to let it go.
My heart is crying like.. Svetlana's voice.
"I started my journey alone.. walked on the gravel road through misty air.
It was a deadly silent night and the wilderness listened to its creator.
Stars whispered quietly among another.
All things in the sky are wonderous and magnificence.
The earth is sleeping in pale blue color.
Then, what makes me in such an agony? Why am I so painful like this?
What am I regretting? What am I waiting for?
Ah, I don't expect anything anymore in this life.
I don't feel sorry for my old days.
I am seeking for peace and free.
Now, I want to go back to sleep to find myself.
"
I can't love someone whom I can't trust.
I have to respect in order to feel love.
I don't like someone who is flirting. Just turn me off right away.
I don't like someone who is selfish and self-centered.
Too much to ask??
I feel love.. I think I am in love.
However, this is not right.. so I have to let it go.
My heart is crying like.. Svetlana's voice.
"I started my journey alone.. walked on the gravel road through misty air.
It was a deadly silent night and the wilderness listened to its creator.
Stars whispered quietly among another.
All things in the sky are wonderous and magnificence.
The earth is sleeping in pale blue color.
Then, what makes me in such an agony? Why am I so painful like this?
What am I regretting? What am I waiting for?
Ah, I don't expect anything anymore in this life.
I don't feel sorry for my old days.
I am seeking for peace and free.
Now, I want to go back to sleep to find myself.
"
I can't love someone whom I can't trust.
I have to respect in order to feel love.
I don't like someone who is flirting. Just turn me off right away.
I don't like someone who is selfish and self-centered.
Too much to ask??
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Okonomiyaki
Goodness, I really missed this Okonomiyaki.
Yoshiko san told me that she can make it and very good.
Last Sunday, we visited Kimono Sensei, Rikkiko.
She just came back from Japan and brought lots of beautiful kimonos.
We took a look and tried about couple.
Then, Yoshiko made some okonomiyaki with shrimp and squid..
Was OK.
I think the key ingredient is Donkatsu sauce and bonito.
Was O e shi.
Sensei had Japanese salad dressing "goma" and it was good too.
Yoshiko was funny.
"Do you want some Su-nak?"
That nobody understood what's Su-Nak?
She tried to say "snack."
Vi and I laughed a lot.
Masako san came later.. she looked very tired.
Good thing was we all laughed and had good time.
Yoshiko san told me that she can make it and very good.
Last Sunday, we visited Kimono Sensei, Rikkiko.
She just came back from Japan and brought lots of beautiful kimonos.
We took a look and tried about couple.
Then, Yoshiko made some okonomiyaki with shrimp and squid..
Was OK.
I think the key ingredient is Donkatsu sauce and bonito.
Was O e shi.
Sensei had Japanese salad dressing "goma" and it was good too.
Yoshiko was funny.
"Do you want some Su-nak?"
That nobody understood what's Su-Nak?
She tried to say "snack."
Vi and I laughed a lot.
Masako san came later.. she looked very tired.
Good thing was we all laughed and had good time.
Nothing..
Kyo wa.. sudeki desu.
Atashi.. kono shi-zun do dotemo sukidesu..
Kono.. kai kekou..
I am left handy..
My left hand is very very strong and do lot of things for me.
However, my right hand is very talented and can learn really fast.
Plus, it's artistic and creative.
All my creative work.. I can't do without my right hand.
All my practical daily stuff, I can't live without my left hand...
Yes, God gave me both hands to utilize the most.. and I am doing it!!
Weather in Seattle is the best so far.
I love it.. I hope it last longer. Just I have to do some yard work.
Atashi.. kono shi-zun do dotemo sukidesu..
Kono.. kai kekou..
I am left handy..
My left hand is very very strong and do lot of things for me.
However, my right hand is very talented and can learn really fast.
Plus, it's artistic and creative.
All my creative work.. I can't do without my right hand.
All my practical daily stuff, I can't live without my left hand...
Yes, God gave me both hands to utilize the most.. and I am doing it!!
Weather in Seattle is the best so far.
I love it.. I hope it last longer. Just I have to do some yard work.
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